As I sit here having been listening to the rain come down this Saturday morning, the day before Mother’s Day, I’m thinking what can I do this weekend when it’s wet and the weather is unpredictable. As a crafter and a lover of handmade things I thought I might check out the handmade fair that is happening today. And then I thought I want to get some of my own crafting done this weekend while I have the time. I have lots to do before the farmers markets start in almost a month.
So, despite the rain I took my mother in law, who’s living with us, to the handmade fair and got some things from some wonderful vendors there. It would have made it a nice day to end it there and say I spent the rest of the day working on my projects but no that’s not how it ended. I ended up getting a call that had me taking my son to the er cause he has been going through a bout of depression and anxiety and felt he needed to be seen for help. He had been seeing a counselor weekly for help or a little over a month now but he needed a bit more than that I guess. So, hopefully now we will get him on the right path forward.
As a mom I struggle a little with this in not seeing the signs or thinking in some way I should have done more but I know from my experience that it is not the case. I have to commend both my kids as they have gone through their struggles with mental health that they have had the strength and knowledge to know and reach out for the help that is available.
So, on this Mother’s Day weekend I would say it is more of a reflective time for me. No big gifts from my kids and happy time. It is more a time to realize that there are things in life that even a mom cannot fix with just a hug. My kids know that I will always support them and I am here for them in whatever they need but I also realize that I can’t always fix every problem they may have. As much as I would love to.
On a side note, as a knitter I was thinking as we were sitting in the er waiting for them to figure out what best to do for him I was kicking myself because this was the one time I didn’t have a project in my bag to work on. I could have gotten so much done at the time. So I vowed from now on to make sure I always have something to do in those moments when life happens to through you a curve ball. For those new moms out there that might read this, welcome to motherhood. It is a roller coaster ride of emotions for the rest of your life I will say and it never stops. But one I would not change.
The last thing I would say about this weekend is I am grateful for my craft I have cause it is my safe place. It helps me through these bumpy ride sections and curve balls that come. As well as the smooth parts of the ride. Happy Mother’s Day. Til next time, I will be crafting on through it all.
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